Hi, my name is Courtney. Nice to meet you....

So, it's been awhile. Due to a very personal situation and ultimately tragedy I had to take a month off. So much for that 90 days eh? I also had to leave the Y's program. Those who want to know why hit me up and I will tell you what happened but I'm not going to share it here....too personal. But. I'm back. And as of right now I have exactly 26 days to train for the 5K I signed up for. Last night I ran for 1.5 miles. (well ran about 80% of the time) So that's halfway there. I just have to keep plugging along with the running so that in almost 4 weeks I can not come in last place! We'll see.

This first I'm back post will be brief as I have a ton of grad school work to do this week. But don't despair, I'm back for good. New goal, same 30lbs!!!

Hope everyone is doing well and accomplishing their goals!!

<3,
Courtney

Snow day!

Not that it matters. I stay at home with Parker but still, we got about 13+ inches! Ridiculous. I'm tired of it. I can't wait for spring time! March! April! When I can take my jogging stroller out around the neighborhood with Parker! Ahhh, can't wait!

So Steve surprised me with Miyabi last night. Once again, I swear they put some type of cocaine, meth, heroin in these rolls. Coincidence that one of them is named a White River roll? I think not. I am addicted. I would eat them every day if I had a Miyabi money tree in the background. Here's some proof of the deliciousness.

On another note, I have fallen in love with another man...his name is Parker....

As far as the back goes I'm still hurting a little bit. Didn't do the Tae-Bo last night which was probably for the best considering I woke up with some soreness today. The irony. Don't work out, get sore. Lovely. Back2Life is on it's way tomorrow and I can't wait to try it out! PT tomorrow too.

Eating is going well! Hope everyone is having a great Thursday!

Parker is sleeping so I have a quick 10 minutes...ugh.

Seriously, that boy has given up on long naps! It's like he doesn't want to miss anything. And with so much garbage happening lately, who can blame him?!

So far so good today. Egg whites for breakfast and a bowl of mayo-less tuna (booo) with chick peas, sunflower seeds, and some balsamic vinaigrette. It was actually pretty blah. Surprising eh? I need some good and low-fat recipes that I can make quickly as I have about 15 minutes until my child needs to move on to another activity. I should probably plan out my menus every week like some people do. That way I'm not like damn, what's for lunch today or what's for dinner? Last night I was craving Miyabi Sushi. If you live in Southern NJ, you best get yourself there. The largest and most delicious rolls I've ever had. If I had a few mil I'd be eating there for dinner every day. My husband has actually become a running joke there as the little Japanese lady always greets him with "Nice to see you again." That's when you know we've been there a few too many times. I really think they put some kind of addictive substance in there. Why? Because I want it again tonight. Damn you Miyabi. Now normally sushi would be good but I don't get one roll. I get two. And normally I take off some of the rice but that's kind of against the rules at this place...it's just so damn good.

Now I'm salivating. Great.

I'm probably going to get in trouble for posting this but I'm going to attempt tae-bo tonight. Since it's snowing like mad I can't go to Zumba so I'm going to do this. I know, I know if I'm hurting I stop. I will. I just need to do something to get myself back on track. And like the last flareup of this, it went away and I was able to resume normal activity. So I'm going to take it upon myself to do just that. Sorry PT. I'll still go to you tomorrow but today I'm making the rules.

Everyone snowed in where they are today?? This is getting out of hand!!

Sorry it's been 5 days.... let me explain! (And don't unfollow me please!)

So the last post I told you all how I went to the hospital, was in a ridiculous amount of back pain and was prescribed meds and a follow up appointment to the ortho.

Friday I went to the ortho, no change in my spine. Still have the herniated disc and some nodes that I know nothing about nor do I want to research because I'm a hypochondriac. They prescribed me some PT and an epidural shot if I needed it. If my back didn't respond to any of that I would need another MRI and surgery. Uh, no. No thanks.

So for the past few days I have literally been doped up on various amounts of oxycodone and valium to help me get through the pain and to sleep. Oh, but first .... Friday happened. My parents live 15 min away and my dad had taken off all last week and this week to help me through this ordeal. Well, it semi-snowed/sleeted (is that a word?) early Friday morning. My parents were due to arrive around 7:30 when Steve left for work. I had trouble walking and picking up Parker so I needed the help. Steve woke me up around 7:15 and said "your parents were in an accident, I have to go get them." Apparently they hit some ice went airborne and landed and hit the rail. It was coming right off of our exit so they were only 3 minutes away. But..their car was totaled. Ugh. Luckily besides some back pain my dad had they were okay but still...REALLY?! How much worse could this new year start off? So that was a whole great, if it wasn't for my back they wouldn't have had to come and this wouldn't have happened. Guilt. It's a bitch.

The weekend was uneventful, I spent my days wallowing in self-pity, doped up on pills, indulging on raw cookie dough and raisinetes. Yes, I needed it. And yes, I've hopped back on the wagon. Today. I had to tell the Y that I can't do weigh in this week either because I'm not sure what I can/can't do yet. I'd rather take a "0" as weight loss then to screw my team with a "+3" I may have to get out all together. But if that's the case then I am going to do this on my own, with my own weekly weigh ins and have all of you to be accountable to.

I'll let you all know the route I have to go once I go to PT on Thursday. I'm hoping I get the green light to go all out but I doubt it. Maybe some walking daily but most definitely not advanced tae-bo cardio. Damnit.

All I can say is...REALLY?!?!

I hope you are all having a better past 5 days than I have had!

-C

Oh what a 24 hours it has been....

Long story short here because I'm still in pain. Yesterday I woke up, made breakfast fed my little man, about 5 minutes later I went to pick him up and something went POP. I then couldn't lift my left leg and pains were shooting up and down my legs. I couldn't even stand up to hold him. I had to call my mom crying for her to hopefully get here to help me. Luckily my mom and dad could come and my dad took me to the hospital.

Damn sciatica strikes hard this time. They gave me a shot of oxycodone and a valium and I went on my wasted way. I have a follow up appointment tomorrow with the orthopedist so hopefully they can give me a light at the end of the tunnel.

Needless to say, I did not get to weigh in today which is a good thing because since things have been so rough I've been "eating on the go" which never amounts to a loss. I also just picked out some chocolate chips from cookie dough. Yes I'm feeling sorry for myself. It's over though. Tomorrow I will start fresh and get back on track.

I'm hoping they say tomorrow that I can at least work out soon otherwise I don't know what else I'm going to do.

I did buy Back 2 Life and I'm hoping that it comes soon so I can begin some treatment.

On that note I'm on oxy and valium so I'm about done.

-Courtney

Noooobody knows the trouble I've seen.

Sorry I haven't blogged today, I'm still in recovery from this damn back. The steroids have helped a little but when I look at my body it leans to one side. I look hot. I wish I could take a picture to show you how my abs push over to one side. It's ridiculous. Hopefully after another day of steroid treatment I will be better and my body will automatically shape shift itself back into place!

I finally slept last night though which was good, only to be awoken by Parker at 5:30. Great.

I have my first official weigh in on Thursday and I don't even want to go. I know I didn't lose anything because of my back and because I'm on the steroids I probably gained weight :( This is not how I wanted my first weigh in to go. I wanted to run out of there screaming "Yes, 10 lbs!" Ugh...that will have to be my goal for the second week now provided I can work out hard!

I just feel bad for my partner because I don't know her at all and she's depending on me. I hope she understands! Ugh.

Other than that, not much else going on. I start grad school officially on Monday but we have to do some orientation and prework this week such as introductions to the class via a webcam. Online classes are going to take some getting used to and you most definitely have to be on your game since you don't physically attend a class. I'm really hoping to graduate with honors in 1.5 years and I'm looking forward to achieving that goal!

Hope you are all having a wonderful Tuesday!

Love,
Courtney

Steroids? Really?

Ugh. So I've hit a speed bump. Last night my back hurt so much I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned from one position to another the entire night. There was not one position that felt good. I woke up ready to go to the hospital. Then I had a brilliant idea: I would call my orthopedist and see if I could get a steroid refill from the last time I had a flare up.

Thank the lord they gave it to me. I'm 3 pills in and hoping that by tomorrow I'm on my way to standing straight up as opposed to being out of whack. Awesome. Great timing! I had to have bread with my pills (bread! the devil of diets!) and who knows when I'll be able to work out! I'm hoping Wednesday and Thursday will be hardcore workout days and at least I can pull a 3lb week as opposed to a 10lb week.

Life happens.